Day 256

Life looks a lot different from someone else’s point of view – that’s what I learned today 🙂

It’s 7: 46 PM on day 256 of my journey towards independence and I’ve managed to brush my teeth, tweet about my Clean Water For All Campaign –no luck – feed myself a polony sandwich for breakfast, exercise for a few hours, rest for a few hours – the power was out – watch TV, feed myself rice and curry for lunch, rest some more – I had a headache 😦 – and brush my teeth once more.

As you know my mother and I have our ups and downs but today as I read Those Special Needs Mothers proud moments by Ellen (see excerpt below) – an American mother who has a son with Cerebral Palsy – I saw life through her eyes and I began to cry because although I often told my mother she was being too overbearing I never once told her that she had done enough so from this moment on I will hear my mother’s words with love and react accordingly. Are you in constant conflict with those you love because you can’t put yourself their shoes for a little while?

For most of life, I’m too busy doing things—or too immersed in worries—to give myself props for mommy-ing Max. Actually, the same is true for mommy-ing Sabrina, who comes with her her own challenges (most of which involve a stubborn streak the size of Texas). But Max gives me a certain kind of parenting insecurity. Plenty of times, I’m just not convinced I’m doing the right thing or helping him as much as I can (and I suspect I am not alone here in feeling this way about my child). I swear, I’d like my tombstone to read “She did enough.”

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if you’ve given to my cause or you can’t give now, please help me by sharing my cause with others. You can tweet about it like my friend Stan Faryna. This is the tweet he uses: @Nisha360 is a brave, smart young woman trying to make a better world for us all. Please help her do an amazing thing.

Stan’s very sweet for saying so, but feel free to write what reflects you best.

Thanks to all my friends out there who are helping me make my dream come true: to make a better world for all of us!


2 responses to “Day 256

  1. I so proud of you, Nisha. It’s wonderful to see you honor your mother.

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