“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.” (Marianne Williamson). It was minutes ago, today that I truly understood what Marianne Williamson meant by that in her poem titled Our Greatest Fear.
If you’ve read yesterday’s post you will know that I have made a commitment to myself to becoming the best me that I possibly can be by leading a more independent life and it’s 9:08 on day 1 of my journey towards independence and I’ve already done one thing on my list – to eat and drink by myself – and I’m telling you with every spoonful of oats I put into my mouth and every sip of tea I just kept thinking I can’t believe I’m doing this, I can’t believe I’m doing this and before I knew it I was done with breakfast I think the biggest challenge that I will face on this journey is my mother and her incessant need to do everything for me – can’t say I blame her though she has been doing it for the past nineteen years – but what I realized after breakfast was that because my parents did everything for me I had no sense of mastery over the most basic tasks and having said that I feel absolutely no anger or resentment towards my parents because I know that they did the best they could with what they had and I also know that part of being an adult is taking responsibility for the way your life has turned out.
Today will go down as one of the most memorable days of my life not because I ate a bowl of oats or drank a cup by myself but because I saw something about my life that I didn’t like and did something to change it and in writing this post I hope to inspire you to do the same because I believe everyone should change the things that they cannot accept and accept the things that they cannot change.